'yaawwwwn'

Working hard...

Tired...

But someday I expect the results to be much more then I even imagined they could...

Such is life... 'smile'

Working out...

Losing weight..

So..

bbl...

Another conversation word for word with 'myfriend'

[07:03] KedarWolf: k...
[07:04] KedarWolf: but wounds take time to heal...
[07:04] myfriend: it’s complicated....
[07:04] KedarWolf: and when they do, they become part of a person character, not detrimental... if we take care to take care of the hurt given and caused...
[07:04] KedarWolf: all I know is...
[07:05] KedarWolf: I have scars from a lifetime of battles this way...
[07:05] KedarWolf: and if I take great care to take care to myself as a person wounded, and know that others are hurt too, then they heal...
[07:05] KedarWolf: and if I act in love to any and all who cross my past...
[07:06] KedarWolf: and if I act in love to any and all who cross my path...
[07:06] KedarWolf: no matter how hurt I am...
[07:06] KedarWolf: I heal and help them heal too...
[07:06] KedarWolf: like my roomies....
[07:06] KedarWolf: over and over they caused me much pain and grief...
[07:06] KedarWolf: and I knew they didn’t understand me well...
[07:06] KedarWolf: very different backgrounds..

Note: The adjustment for me living with two others, a man and a woman, stricting plutonic was very hard for them too, i dont come from a pristine background at all and have, well, had, very little skills for spltting a three bedroom apartment with a man and a woman, so they were more then patient with me... all around.... and now i turn it around very much so... so, works both ways i'm sure... my less then 'pristine' background is a story for another day...

Second Note: I am not a crook!!!!! (Well, my lawyer tells me to deny everything, makes the trials much easier...) 'snicker'
[07:07] myfriend: we were getting too close, we both knew that...so I think we both kind of put a stop to it
[07:07] KedarWolf: so I understood this...
[07:07] KedarWolf: and...
[07:07] KedarWolf: no matter how wounded I was...
[07:07] KedarWolf: I honored and respected them both always...
[07:07] KedarWolf: just secretly...
[07:07] KedarWolf: be kind as I could...
[07:07] KedarWolf: doing my best to be an example these ways...
[07:08] KedarWolf: and all I know is what should never have happened in my life is happening now and more...
[07:08] KedarWolf: that love is the key...
[07:08] KedarWolf: lesson I’m learning..
[07:08] KedarWolf: and if I mess up and I do...
[07:08] myfriend: the key???
[07:08] KedarWolf: make amends...
[07:09] KedarWolf: show I respect them and care always...
[07:09] KedarWolf: always try to act in ways that show love and care even if it costs or hurts...
[07:09] KedarWolf: and now I start to heal and they do too...
[07:09] KedarWolf: and help me heal cuz they begin to have compassion for me...
[07:10] KedarWolf: the key is simply this...
[07:10] KedarWolf: so simple...
[07:10] KedarWolf: in your life....
[07:10] KedarWolf: all who come into your life or cross your path...
[07:10] KedarWolf: is treat all with love, honor and respect.....
[07:11] KedarWolf: no matter how they treat you....
[07:11] KedarWolf: but not just act as you care...
[07:11] myfriend: I was going with the metaphor from your blog
[07:11] KedarWolf: but remember they are hurt and wounded too...
[07:11] KedarWolf: and they need to heal...
[07:11] KedarWolf: so have compassion and act on it always...
[07:11] myfriend: and now I must get some sleep
[07:11] KedarWolf: it's not enough to just care...
[07:12] KedarWolf: I do many things without telling anyone why...
[07:12] myfriend: the coffee worked and I am tired now...
[07:12] KedarWolf: just in my heart I know it is a caring thing to do and will help...
[07:12] KedarWolf: so secretly, I do those things, openly too..
[07:13] KedarWolf: and I do what they ask and need me too...
[07:13] KedarWolf: even if I don’t agree...
[07:13] KedarWolf: just to respect them and how they feel...
[07:13] KedarWolf: even if it hurts and costs me a lot...
[07:13] KedarWolf: and I heal for acting in love always... even if they are wrong...
[07:14] KedarWolf: and they feel I respect them..
[07:14] KedarWolf: and begin to respect me in return...
[07:14] KedarWolf: love heals and brings love....
[07:14] KedarWolf: this I know in my life...
[07:14] KedarWolf: I’m done until another day... :)
[07:15] KedarWolf: 'smile'
[07:17] *** Disconnected ***
*** Log file closed: 02/06/2005 07:17:12