It's tuff

I don’t know how to explain this.

I don't even think I should admit it.

I'm not suicidal or am going to take my life.

But I honestly think the only thing that is keeping me alive is I promised to help my friend with unknown medical problems that are getting so bad I wonder if she will live too.

You know.

I know she is so alone too, has no-one who loves her and is falling in love with me.

I care for her very much. I think that she is not loved she is dying too.

Sometimes that loneliness and pain can be so bad that you just give up and die.

Without taking your own life.

I know, it was happening to me.

But.

I do care.